Well Today was Father's day the day we are supposed to show the man in our lives who raised us and taught us what a man was and be a role-model. unfortunately I grew up without my dad so my mom just got two days out of the year other than her birthday to be cherished and celebrated. My mom remarried a few years ago to a guy who I don't really get along with .. he supports me financially only by letting me stay in his home and had food and comfort that goes along with that.. so I appreciate that but I do not look up to this man... just saying.. When I pray I almost always call God "Father" because that is what he is.. a Father of all the earth. I think that God allows us to call him that because we can't fathom some being somewhere with no shape loving and forgiving us.. because when you put the label father or king you automatically think of what you know about these titles. Authority, Power, and never ending love. God has been my father and role-model for a long time now.. He has been watching over me since I was born and I can see many instances that I know he has been there.. Sometimes its tough because there isn't a physical being to be afraid of but the thought of being punished brings a sort of terror and horrible thoughts to my head.. Like if I continue to sin God will take my mother to teach me a lesson. And I know God isn't like that but there are stories about people who strayed and were brought back by an life changing incident.. In the end I Thank God for all he has provided and being so patient with me and continuing to love me despite me...
so that was my rant about my feelings.. Today was a great day at church The band led worship again and I wasnt shaking uncontrollably..I wish we could have warmed up but This one felt like the best performance we have done..
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