Whoa ok sorry about the last blog.. super personal and yet oddly not all true.. this always happens... it gets late and I start saying things I shouldnt say.. but anyways let me clarify..I did Love Julia.. but now its more like.. Im happy for her and I keep saying things im not supposed to.. there are some things you cant say so im sorry about that..
Ok so aside from that.. Today I started my first day at city college.. .. its been a while since ive been in school .. i mean job corp was kinda like school but it was more of self learning.. The day started off way good.. I got up 5 minutes before my alarm and got ready and left a little earlier then i was.. thinking I would beat the rush.. Oh how I was wrong.. i spent 25 minutes looking for parking until i finally resorted to a parking by the Radcliffe stadium.. needless to say I didnt mind the walk but my backpack was packed with every book I had and my laptop.. I get actually on campus and head for my first class which is Swimming.. there were a couple of guys in the locker room waiting for the instructor so I joined them in their waiting.. we struck up conversation and then the instructor showed up.. he opened the gate to the pool and we sat on the bleachers..where he then proceeded to tell us that this class was a swimming Aerobics class.. at first I felt embarrassed but then he asked who actually knew that it was an aquatic aerobics class and only 2 people raised their hands.. so I felt much better.. haha.. he then told us that if we were interested in the actual swimming class to come at 8 because there is still room..so I will be definatly going to that which means I have to wake up earlier but its ok... second class was reading.. I like this class .. I sit behind a guy who looks like superman.. or well his alter ego.. Clark Kent.. from his glasses to his hair.. haha I found it humorous and cool that he had the iphone4.. superman would.. lol.. the 2 girls to my right were talkative but it was funny talking to them soon the class was over and I felt I had time to kill so I walked back to my car.. found a semi closer parking space and unloaded all the unneeded books and my laptop.. im pretty sure my back verbally thanked me... lol.. I headed back and decided to go to the bookstore to get some more needed things but there was a line and it took all my time so i had to go to my next class.. it wasnt until I found a seat when my stomach started rumbling... I knew I couldnt eat anytime soon because I had 2 classes with no time gap so I went through it.. ..My first day was over and as I was walking back to my car I was considering all my options of a meal.. fast food.. .. hot pocket.. Subway!!.. then I was off. then I got a call from my niece saying that my nephew wasnt at the house yet and its been an hour since he got out.. I said i would stop by the school and see if he was there.. then she said that she was hungry so I eneded up opting for pizza.. I got to my house picked her up and found out my nephew was with my mom so that case was solves.. I went for the pizza and came home and ate.. overate actually to the point of gagging.. it wasnt fun.. time went by and I organized my backpack getting ready for tommorow.. .. Hope its a good one ^__^
Monday, August 16, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
My Immortal
I was texting my Ex and she said that a song came on and it reminded her of me.. this isnt uncommon because the same thing happens to me ..
On January 30 2007 I got into a relationship with Julia Jones.. We first met at church I was shy and she was crushing on me.. I wasnt really looking for a relationship at the time but her brother mentioned that me and her should get together because she really really liked me ..we had just came back from a youth trip and I thought she was a cool girl.. so while Julia were talking on the phone I finally asked her out.. it was a funny experience.. seeing as it had been a while since I had done any dating.. So needless to say we made shockwaves throught the church as news hit we were a couple.. me and her just laughed about it.. as time went on we began to hit the milestones.. first date, first kiss, first argument, ... See when i looked at Julia I seen a beautiful Girl who had a special voice and laugh and who loved to sing..aggressive personality.... but other people had their opinions of her..I began to feel ashamed to be with her.. the peoples talking became overwhelming and I broke... broke up with her actually .. I gave her the escuse that I wanted to get closer to God.. but in reality I let my ego and what people thought get the best of me. I didnt want to admit that I cared for her.. .. after we broke up things went south for her.. deaths..homelessness... other horrible things.. and I had the feeling but just kept being stubborn.. then the inevitable happened.. she found someone else.. and at first I was happy until I met him.. he was a alright guy but he dragged her into things i didnt like.. she became a different person.. we still kept contact and the feeling were there for both of us but she was moving on.. fastforward and Shes Happily married with a adorable baby boy.. and im still single lol..
So where im going with this is.. I honestly believe that we were meant to be together I always deny it but when people ask if I even loved Julia I lie and say no but then it sends me through a thought frenzy of how untrue it is.. I think what happened was I broke up a relationship God had put together because she loved me with everything she had but I didnt know what that was at the time.. so God took her broken heart and mended it with her family.. but you cant really get rid of True loves feelings.. Oh the thoughts of the ones that read this.. especially if it is the ones i vehemently denied my feelings to....
So to wrap this vent fest up I Do love Julia and I love that she got her life together She has a beautiful family and when I get mad or annoyed of how her husband treats her he was the one to pick her up.. So I have to stand back and let what could have been go .. I question if we can still be friends because the conversation inevitably turns into how we miss each other and memories of what was come up and stir up those emotions ,...
but I know she made the right decision and I wish the best for her
On January 30 2007 I got into a relationship with Julia Jones.. We first met at church I was shy and she was crushing on me.. I wasnt really looking for a relationship at the time but her brother mentioned that me and her should get together because she really really liked me ..we had just came back from a youth trip and I thought she was a cool girl.. so while Julia were talking on the phone I finally asked her out.. it was a funny experience.. seeing as it had been a while since I had done any dating.. So needless to say we made shockwaves throught the church as news hit we were a couple.. me and her just laughed about it.. as time went on we began to hit the milestones.. first date, first kiss, first argument, ... See when i looked at Julia I seen a beautiful Girl who had a special voice and laugh and who loved to sing..aggressive personality.... but other people had their opinions of her..I began to feel ashamed to be with her.. the peoples talking became overwhelming and I broke... broke up with her actually .. I gave her the escuse that I wanted to get closer to God.. but in reality I let my ego and what people thought get the best of me. I didnt want to admit that I cared for her.. .. after we broke up things went south for her.. deaths..homelessness... other horrible things.. and I had the feeling but just kept being stubborn.. then the inevitable happened.. she found someone else.. and at first I was happy until I met him.. he was a alright guy but he dragged her into things i didnt like.. she became a different person.. we still kept contact and the feeling were there for both of us but she was moving on.. fastforward and Shes Happily married with a adorable baby boy.. and im still single lol..
So where im going with this is.. I honestly believe that we were meant to be together I always deny it but when people ask if I even loved Julia I lie and say no but then it sends me through a thought frenzy of how untrue it is.. I think what happened was I broke up a relationship God had put together because she loved me with everything she had but I didnt know what that was at the time.. so God took her broken heart and mended it with her family.. but you cant really get rid of True loves feelings.. Oh the thoughts of the ones that read this.. especially if it is the ones i vehemently denied my feelings to....
So to wrap this vent fest up I Do love Julia and I love that she got her life together She has a beautiful family and when I get mad or annoyed of how her husband treats her he was the one to pick her up.. So I have to stand back and let what could have been go .. I question if we can still be friends because the conversation inevitably turns into how we miss each other and memories of what was come up and stir up those emotions ,...
but I know she made the right decision and I wish the best for her
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