Hero

A hero (hera or heroine in female) (Ancient Greek: ἥρως, hḗrōs), in Greek mythology and folklore, was originally a demigod, their cult being one of the most distinctive features of ancient Greek religion.[1] Later, hero (male) and heroine (female) came to refer to characters who, in the face of danger and adversity or from a position of weakness, display courage and the will for self sacrifice – that is, heroism – for some greater good, originally of martial courage or excellence but extended to more general moral excellence


"and the will for self sacrifice"

I do that alot.. and it doesnt bother me.. I feel its a need of mine.. sometimes I let it affect my life but other times I want the best for people in my life..

I have no idea where im going with this my thoughts are a jumbled mess ..
*breaths*

Trials.. adversity.. troubles.. we are told that God puts Trials in our lives to strengthen us in areas of our lives that could easily be overcome by "the devil"
I feel that I am prone to these trials.. I wont even dare to compare myself to Job... I have blamed God.. maybe not directly but I often ask why this is happening.. but it seems like just when I get life figured out I get knocked down.. I barely dusted the dirt off myself from my last trial and struggled to get up from the last one and now I am headed into another storm ..I feel there is something that I have yet to learn from all my trials.. I know for a fact I let Jesus "take the wheel" but as soon as its over I say "ok Jesus thanks but i gotta go" .... lol.. I have no idea what God has in store for me but I am faithful that all these rough times will prepare me for anything.. I cant be crumbling about little things cause what happens when I get to the big stuff..

oh and yea there was a point to the hero definition up there.. I toyed with the thought of what makes a hero.. .. I feel like I try to be the hero alot.. people know they can always come to me and I will listen.. give advice and if I can.. be there for them.. but who is there for the heroes.. I think I have said that I feel like I have no one to go to when I have troubles.. i mean i know there is God.. but sometimes there needs to be immediate answers .. maybe its just me .. my relationship with God isnt where I can sit by myself and pray and talk to God without feeling like im talking to the air..

ugh still jumbled and venting.. cant even finish this thought without ten others trying to break through.. *sigh*...