Waves are crashing down

Well this week has been.. Hard.. It's sorta like a emotional rollarcoaster .. I mean during the day I'm good and get through class and but after I start feeling homesick but just a small bit..I thought it would be a good idea to "swim it off" because it's good excercise and I love to swim.. Well the swimming helped until it was over .. When I get back to my room I feel a tightening in my chest and can hardly control my emotions ..I get seriously homeSICK.. Emphasis on the sick because I feel nauseous ..and I start practically hyperventalating .. I pray and after a while it goes away.. But for some reasons some songs set me off again.. I think it's wierd because when I was here previously It had never got this bad..I feel dumb because a guy my age should be out of the house and working to succeed later in life..I mean I already got a late start so I remind myself that this is to better myself and if I work hard I could be out of here before break.. ..I am so looking forward to break..but I will have missed so much.. Birthdays.. Well yea I want to get everyones birthday to atleast send a card ..I haven't blogged in a couple days for a couple differant reasons.. For one I have grown way to accustomed to the ease of access to myspace on my phone.. And 2 it wouldn't matter unless I stopped by my wireless access point and I haven't been there since Tuesday haha.. Well my first week back and my forth week in total.. I have to keep busy.. :D