Hero

The surrealness of my situation is finally going away and the reality is hitting and hitting hard.. Of course I am reffering to my leaving to job corps which is located In clearfield Utah ..I haven't really been thinking about how I am going to actually not see some people for a long while.. I got alot of goodbyes and good lucks that may have been the reason..but my time was short and there was one more person I needed to say goodbye to ..I didn't know how to approach her so I told her daughter to be like "mom guess what" haha it worked perfectly..I got the usual reaction "why" "how long" where" but then it got silent an I made eye contact I seen tears welling up in her eyes .. I immediatly looked away because that's as contagious as a yawn to me.. So I tried to compose myself I looked up and smiled it didn't help that people were around so elly says "see everyones gonna miss you " after that encounter I was sorta in a daze for the rest of the day .. I am so dramatic i feel like doing things as if I was going to die..

Today was a good day.. I was awaken by my mom asking if I was going to ride with them I tried to shrug but then drifted back in my slumber..then I woke up again to my sister turning on the light I guess she was checking if I was here.. I looked at the time and ha to get up if I wanted to get a ride to church.. I dressed and soon I was at church.. It was break time and everyone was in the sanctuary so I took my normal seat and watched the worship team practice .. Flash forwad to after church.. I said alot of good byes and then the encounter happened and then we left .. My sister took us to eat an then to old navy after we headed to Moises house because we were going to buy a new rockband game and I have been wanting to play it because it has alot of newer songs..we got to the store and got the game we got to his house and started the game we were hurrying because it would be my first and only time playing it until I come back for Christmas ..we played until it was time for night church and we went.. I went back into my daze.. I don't even remember the topic..well I do remember something about a "biblical superman" yea ..so I came home and cleaned making as much room for victor and storing all my stuff ..oh ew the worst part of my whole situation is the stress .. I has made me break out ..great.. Hopefully the clearsil somehow works wonders.. I want good first impressions haha :D

Thankgiving

Today I awoke to the aroma of many things being cooked and reheated..It was Thanksgiving the smells lingering through the air it what woke me up but I wanted to sleep.. I was then startled by the light .. it was my brother as he got up and collected the clothes he would wear and headed for the shower..I rolled over and grabbed my ipod. the clock read "9:32" .. hit the myspace and Iknights apps and updated them.. then I grabbed for the remote and turned on the tv.. I found myself watching "Tom and Jerry"... I dont really care for that cartoon but I wasnt really watching just more of waking up and letting my eyes adjust.. Victor came into the room so I took that time to take my shower.. I didnt know what to wear so i through on some jeans and an old faded black t-shirt.. Time passed and I changed into something more "Formal".. as people started arriving... soon we were all at the tables eating ..at the end my plate was empty and I was stuffed.. my stomach most likely has stretch marks I now know what a "food baby" feels like.. haha.. I lied on my bed to let the food settle .. my niece was kept me company but she was playing an online chat site where she dresses her avatar... I wanted to sleep just to forget about my fullness but I took to trying to beat a score on a game .. I finally beat it and by this time our house was almost cleared of people.. just immediate family was here now.. I helped clear the chairs and tables and then retreated back to my room because I was hoping that I could take a nap.. I changed into pajamas and lied in my bed.. sleep didnt come but I did make a playlist.. it has "Nap songs".. which included any slow melodic songs christian and non.. by this time the clock hit 7 and I spent time watching tv and on my ipod.. my sister then called me to say she was leaving which meant I had to come in her room and keep an eye on her son while she goes out and endures the chaos of "black Friday" I am hoping to get atleast 3 shirts out of it.. haha... Today was a day to give thanks for all your blessings.. I mostly thought about how thankful I was to have such awesome people come through my life... I thought about alot of people and how they Effected my life .. some big..some small.. some close friends ..some acquaintances ..but all had good roles :D

Grace

Why? Why are you still here with me?
Didn’t you see what I’ve done?
In my shame I want to run,
And hide myself.
but it’s here I see the truth,
I don’t deserve you.

But I need you to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from you this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need you to love me

I, I have wasted so much time -Barlowgirl -I need you to love me

I really like that song.. So lately I haven't been posting because either lack of will or not being here.. This week has been hectic and with thanksgiving tommorow it's not likely to slow down..I have recently been so caught up In packing I have noticed a steep decline in my spiritual life..lack of conviction,prayer, but the surrealness of this whole situation of mr moving out of state has barely hit me..and not in a big way..which made me think about this flaw I have.. I am numb..I don't have emotions about alot of stuff.. Change comes easier than natrual..I just role with the punches but stay stagnent and just go about living..I keep having dreams that my family is pushing me out.. Like my brother Boxing all my clothes and taking my bed out of the room .. It's a little weird cause when I got up today I noticed he moved my dressers to the bottom and his to the top..i lost my train of thought and stood there staring at my brothers clothes for almost a full minute..I daydreamed alot today..it was a beautiful day..peaceful...I reminiced about alot of things ...today we had a thanksgiving service at church.. I went partly to tell more people about my departure..I ended up babysitting my sisters son..which turned into 8 kids.. They seemed to settle while watching Dora but when it came to veggie tales all hell broke loose and paper airplanes were going into eyes ..yes.. It was chaos.. I talked to an old friend and ended up catching the last 20 minutes of the sermon.. I was more distracted by the lack of formality..kids everywhere screaming .. Youth talking .. But I can't blame them..it was a 2 and a half hour service..it ended and I had the beginings of a headache.. I tried to steere clear of any people but it was easier because they were all busy talking to each other.. I finally came home and rested... I'm not looking forward to the chaos that will ensue tommorow as we celebrate thanksgivng but my personal thankfulness is on my mind..I am mostly thankful to God for his grace on me despite me..

Happy thanksgiving

Remember me

Ok so lately I have been talking about my departure almost like non stop on my blogs it's hard not to because thoughs of it consume my mind for a majority of my day.. But I do find the reaction to my leaving interesting.. For most of my friends it was a "why" and they got this blank look on there face as they look down for a second then go on about a scenario of me returning with a wife and possible kids haha.. I didn't expect people to go all crazy get sad and emotional But there is one friend in particular ..when she heard she seemed apathetic .. She hasn't said I would be missed or anything.. I considered us close she was like a little sister but it seems she could care less.. Maybe I'm over thinking it…

today I woke up earlier than usual to the sound of a vacuum .. It was my mom .. She has started "spring cleaning" ikr.. It's in large part because we will be having thanksgiving here.. Yippy right?( I wonder if Jesus used parables as sarcasm??) haha .. But yea she has been cleaning everything.. I got up reluctant at first until I remembered it was Thursday and that meant the Christian club at sunnyside high school .. It also meant I got to see my old friend which we planned to hang out this lunch time but I didn't see her so I headed to the club.. They showed a video and a guy gave his testimony.. It was over and I began chatting with everyone(elly jose Moises and their 4 friends) the bell rang and I walked with jose to his class until I ran into my friend she was mad I didn't wait so I agreed to walk her to her class.. We reminiced and she reminded me of this super embaressing yet ellaborate story I came up with instead of addmitting I liked her.. This was ling ago but I was laughing and kicking myself for saying something so stupid.. We got to her class and said our goodbyes.. As I left I felt bad that I didn't tell her it would likely be the last time I would see her ..I walked to the front gate and proceeded to walk home... I forgot how far it actually was . My iPod estimated an hour walking I actually didn't notice between my thoughts my iPod and pain in my feet keeping me occupied.. I got home drank like a gallon if water and waddled to my sisters computer.. I got some music and uploaded a new pic .. My mom asked if I wanted to go get a haircut.. I said yes so we headed off .. I got it cut and at first I was like ewe but then once the gel was in place I felt satisfied ...I returned home again and by this time my niece and nephew were out of school fast forward and they got picked up and soon me and my sister were off to worship practice .. They did their thing ad I chatted with jose .. His mom asked me questions about my leaving and after the singing was over I chatted with elly and Saul.. I left and once again was in my room .. I ate a small dinner showered and washed dishes.. Sleep time.. :D

Hold my heart

I find music to be very persuasive(I don't know if that's the right word) but how it seems it can manipulate your feelings to extremes how a song can encourage, discourage, covict, even make feelings like hate,sadness, happiness or even love to become as if on steroids.. Love songs can make you relate lyrics to a person you are crushing on, sad songs push you deeper into a depression or to the brink of tears..happy uplifting songs can make you want to dance around or strut around as if your all that and a bad of chips.. Pardon my expression for being so 1990's haha .. I have experianced all these emotions from listening to songs.. I am a big fan of music.. All types of music.. If
I hear something I feel as if I need to. Hear and examine the lyrics beats ,rythem and usually the message of the song.. I am a Christian but I am very eclectic in my taste of music.. My iPod has theist randomest artists from "lil Wayne" to "Taylor swift" and "demi lovato". I don't like that much rap because the lyrics get a little much from the sex innuendos ..Christian music Is a large majority of my iPod song list .. I like to listen because unlike secular music Christian music has a way of relating to everyone personally because everyone goes through struggles .. And the upbeat uplifting songs just feel awesome to sing aloud and it is praise to God and it just brings about a joy in your heart..i got lost in where I was headed with this rant.. I just wonder if I let music make me into who I am throughout the day..

Today I wasnt feeling to good so I stated in bed until
12 then I took a shower and got a rush of ..cockyness idk I guess that's the word to describe it.. I got the urge to walk to 711 so I put in my new shoes to break them in.. I put on my iPod and played my "power mix" which is filled with songs that make me want to dance haha.. I made it the end of the street and my feet started hurting.. It was my shoes .. I endured the feeling which turned to pain by the time I reached the light.. The walk Is 30 minutes from my house but I got to the store and forgot about the pain in my feet..I walked to the chi aisle and looked over all the brands until I found my guilty pleasure .. Hot cheeto puffs .. I picked up a bag and I must have been in my own world because I didn't notice a girl standing next to me so when I turned to grab a soda I practically ran into her .. I first noticed her smile..she has brown long wavy hair and these dark brown eyes she was cute we made eye contact and smiled and I apologized she smiled and said it was ok we then had one of those things where you try to walk but they go the same way left,right,left, right.. We laughed and I let her go .. I chuckled to myself and walked to the beverages and grabbed a coke .. I headed for the cashier and it just so happened so was she I let get go first I noticed she had a bag of hot Chetto puffs I smiled to myself until my ringtone shocked me out of my
moment.. As luck would have it my ringtone was set to this ghetto song about a chewing on bubble gum(if you've seen Paul blart mall cop you know the ringtone he had) I quickly reached for my phone and seen it was my cousin.. I hit reject because I don't think talking would have lessened the embaressment.. I heard her and the cAshier chuckle and I smirked and tried not to turn tomato red .. She got her change and headed out the door .. The cAshier must have noticed me staring because I had not responded to him telling me the price.. I apologized and paid the man.. I left the store thinking about the encounter and kicked myself for not being outgoing enough to ask for a name or even push for a number but this wasn't a movie so I doubt another encounter would happen and I will be leaving so it wouldn't matter... I got home and ate my snacks .. My brother got home and then I got a call to pick up some information about my flight schedule ..by the time I got back my niece and nephew were here we watched tv and it was soon time for church my sister dropped us off and I went to class because everyone seemed to be in class already .. We had a study about the second coming of Jesus which was interesting .. Class ended and I was excited for glee and so was Moises whom has also taken to watching the fox show .. I got home and played with my dogs until it started.. After it was over I showered and started thinking about the laundry I have to do tommorow.. But now it's time for sleep :D

Adoration

Today I was uber excited because one of my favorite bands released their new album and of course I had already got the pre buy so I Just had to go pick it up.. My day started off well enough.. I got a good nights sleep finally without any middle of the night wake ups.. I got ready and seen my mom doing yardwork I headed to the shower and I started thinking about something that has been on my mind which is who do I really have to tell I am leaving.. If I wanted I could just go and let my family do that hard work.. But I wouldn't want people to feel as if I didn't care about them to atleast say goodbye .. I got dressed and watched tv .. My mom asked if I wanted to go get the cd so I eagerly said yes and we left for the store . It was quick in and out and I held the cd in my hand I laughed to myself because my first thought was that I needed to get home to put the songs on my iPod and then the cd would just become practically useless but the cover art is awesome ..we then headed to target to look for a jacket because apparentyl it's atleast 30 degrees colder in utah! Aah that's gonna suck but it's ok I think humans by nature adapt.. I didn't get a jacket but I got shoes so I put them on because I needed to break them in.. I got home and seen my nephew playing outside.. I guess he was sick so they let him out early he didn't look to sick throwing around a soccer ball I got dissapointed at first until i flashed back to my many "sicknesses" haha.. I headed to the computer and began the copying.. I also got caught up on this web show I like to watch called "the guild" the time flew by and my Bruce and nephew were picked up as usal.. It was Now 6:30 and The rest of my day consisted of listenening to my new cd. .. And as usual casting crowns did not dissapoit.. I was hit with sadness,conviction,encouragment, and then had a couple new favorite songs haha.. I showered and I am feeling a headache coming on.. Hopefully I can stay healhy and dodge the dreaded h1n1.. Goodnight people :D

it's Official

I really want to keep this updated bacause it's fun to just write out thoughts, emotions and just dumb rants it a release .. Today I got the call informing me that I will be leaving Fresno to Utah .. The long awaited and anticipated call.. I will be leaving the 1st of december I estimated as much.. I am a little apathetic about the whole situation I wouldn't say I'm excited but I wouldn't say I am not but I do get giddy( a rush of excitment and disbelief) the only downside is the packing.. What a hassle.. But I'm ready to go.. I have recently started telling people and my friends mom looked sad when she was told.. It was Moises mom she is practicaly like a mom to me we are always at his house not as much vice versatile but we do come here on occasion.. But I am glad I told them they are like family .. I have a couple more people to tell so blah to that... These past few days have been fun I want to leave here with people remembering me for the happy go lucky, high spirited person. I am.. Not to be extremly pessimistic but the plane could crash.. But I'm not about pessamism(now the autofill doesn't work) but optimism Is my usual route.. I really home this change jumpstarts the motivation and determination and drive to reach for any goals I make ..change is inevitable so when I think of how much people can change in the time I am gone makes me wonder.. Will I come back to the same happy croud or to people that have become strangers over time.. Idk not important.. This post didn't have a point that I can thing of but I am looking toward to updates on here whenever I find a good wifi hot spot :). Oh and is writing a will type thing being pessamistic??

I've had enough of living life for only me

Today brings me One step closer to death..... Haha just kidding although it is technically true today was the bat day if my week bar none.. I woke up with anticipation because today was the day I was going to be a guest speaker at my brothers high school Christian club.. I prepared a little in advance just as to what I would say.. I actually had a rough draft written out and I typed the final today.. It was kinda humorous because I actually timed my speech and was happy that it averaged about 7 minutes .. A good time for a lunchtime meeting .. So I typed my guide up and prayed for God to calm my nerves and before I knew it I was walking up to the school.. In my head I had a mix of praying and singing.. Haha this is random but I recently got that Miley Cyrus song "party inthe USA" when I actualy listened to it I thought "aww she was nervouse about being in a new place and seeing that she sticks out And she gets nervous but she hears a song and it helps her get over it " i found it encouraging until I found out she didn't write it and had actually never heard a jay z song which is is one of the lyrics..I am still semi crushed about it but whatever Hannah bannana!!

Oh back to my day haha.. So I got into the class room I had met up with Elly which was good because she helped me forget my nerves for a while .. My other friends got their and it was time..I got through my "sermon" even though I was literally shaking and it showed in my voice but ad I sat down I got slot of good job whispers ad thumbs up I felt like I did mediocre until this girl came up and introduced herself and said how she was depressed and said how she was encouraged by the chapter I read from .. I have today that made my day I was so happy because i had prayed specifically for that and God worked through me so I left feeling giddy haha so when I seen an old friend I gave her a hug tighter then usual haha.. I then left the school in high spirits I came home and spent my time on my sisters computer and texting .. Watched my Greys anatomy and around 6 I headed to worship practice ad watched elly and zabdi sing.. After that I came home and time flew as I myspaced the day is over and I still am all smiles about God showing me once again "I got this" hahaha

My heart aches

Ok so I think I mentioned that I was going to be leaving the state to go into this program.. I have yet to tell everyone even though I could be leaving by the end of this month .. I go along .. Smiling and laughing with the people the bring me joy and happiness in my life .. When I think of all the stuff I will be missing.. Birthdays, special occasion.. Growth. I see my neice and nephews and friends and wonder how much they will change in the time I am gone .. I act like I'm do important that people can't live without me.. I really feel that way.. Not like I'm special but how people look up to me.. How kids come to me because they know I will give them attention ..today I have heard my name called out numerous times just to get me to look and wave.. This trip is going to be hard I'm only going for 2 years but I will miss everyone..

Ok so this weekend was a great one .. Saturday my sisters and their kids packed up and headed to pismo beach.. My brother and 2 friends are in band and they had to perform and compete .. We wanted to go watch for the day so my parents left Friday and we went for the day Saturday .. We arrived and it was breezy but the weather was warm so it was nice a good change from the usual ugly overcast and cold that I usually experiance ..we took forever to find a parking since this band thing had schools coming from over 20 schools.. We finally parked and found a place to sit and watch.. Victors school eventually passéd I took pics and it was over so we headed to eat and did some walking .. I seen my brother and friends so I talked with them for a while they were kinda dissapointed that they got 3rd. I left and we went for some frozen yogurt that I have been raving about since I had the first taste .. I got cookies and cream., cheese cake, and pumpkin pie they were all so delicious .. After we walked in some shops and then headed for the beach.. I got knee deep in the water but I didn't have a change of clothes so that was my limit.. I helped my nephew fly his kite.. While we were there I seen what seemed to be a newlywed couple on the beach.. The reason I think so was they had a photographer taking shot of them "frolicking on the sand " haha my favorite was when a huge wave brung the water so close to soaking them but they all ran for it haha.. Soon the sun set and we headed home.. I slept good but was hoping I wasn't to tired for church..

I woke up before my alarm.. But it turns out that I would have anyway because it was set for pm but I showered and got ready once my brother was ready we drove to church .. I went to class and found it rather bland.. I feel bad but my patience with a certain "fellow student" is wearing thin.. From his off topic comments that are humored by the teachers to his rather pathetic and unfunny attempts at jokes.. I don't think I will be attending anymore ... After Sunday school was over I headed to break where I was gretted with Hugs from my used to be students when I was a teacher.. I started talking to people adm then to my suprise my friend Julia was there .. A good suprise none the less since she hasn't been to the church in over a year.. We talked and she went around catching up with all the people she remembered .. It was time for service so we sat through that I was happy during worship because my friend elly was singing .. I sorta helped push her into doing it by saying if you go I'll go.. I didn't go but she didn't get mad she Just wants me to keep my word and go up next time... I want to but even though I tell myself it doesn't matter If people say I can't sing I'm not doing it for them.. But I'm scared they might say that haha.. Idk I'll get over it.. The sermon ended and I made plans to hang out with Moises ..Julia invited herself as usual but her and her husband wanted to go the the swap meet first so I went with them .. The plans fell through and I ended up taking them home.. I came back home and then Moises called and wanted to come .. My parents had barely got back from their camping so they were to tired for company .. So we went to his house where we ended up skipping night church and playing Moises game.. We came home around 9 and I passed time on my iPod.. Now it's time for sleep my favorite thing to do.. Release my subconcious.. Dangerous yet entertaining :D

Fork in the road

Life can be manipulated by daily choices the simplest of descisions can change the outcome of your day.. Being a believer in God I "learned" he is in control .. But I also know we have freedom of choice .. I see it as he has a plan for everyone but I get stumped when let's say a 15 year old gets pregnant for bad descions but the baby ends up becoming a doctor or the next huge evangelist .. God seen that future way before the 15 year old even Met the guy .. Right?? Idk it'd hard to conceive things like that my example was dramatic but I always feel like "is this the right choice" is it what God wants.. I honestly don't know.. I have come into a huge descion and it is falling into place but I still have doubts .. Actually every other thing I had planned as backups have already fell through so I guess all signs point to yes.. It will be a big change but if I leave it to God it will al work out for the best.. Right??


Today was simple .. I took my 3 dogs for a walk our usual route and atleast this time only one got off it's collar ..it happened twice And we were by the busy street as usual.. It's so annoying cause it happens and they sit there looking at me and I hurry and put it back on before they make a run for it (which has never happened thank God) but I'm usually quick but I wonder what people In the cars waiting at the stop lights think.. I got home and got something for lunch and I noticed my sister wasn't here so I took the opportunity to download the latest music .. I also worked on this video project for a lady at church .. By this time it was 3 and I took a break and ended up watching tv .. I heard the kids so I knew it was around 4:30 I made them a snack and we watched tv as they filled me in on their day at school .. They were soon picked up and I was craving hot chettoes so bad and the walk would be good but time passed and I settled for cookies and milk.. I watched the celebrity updates and then I got a call from Saul he filled me in on all the stuff e was up to and we talked rumors because lately people are scrounging for anything they can talk about and we find it amusing and annoying.. We finished talking and I went to take a shower This Is random but oh how I love the water pressure in our shower .. It's strong enough when the spray hits it sorts massages and when you are washing your hair it actually gets all the soap quickly unlike some peoples shower that practically drizzles and takes forever to wash your hair .. Anyway I'm off to sleep hopefully only pleasent dreams for me as well for my reader it isn't a push not using plural since I don't think anyone reads hahaha. Good night :D

Fame

Lately I noticed I have been watching those shows that give you all the celebrity updates and latest scandals and it's weird but I keep thinking of how I want to be famous .. Name up in lights, everyone knows your name .. The paparazzi I could live without becUse they would get the worst pics of me haha oh and I'm like addicted to this song by lady gaga(I know right) I mean she is infamous for numerous things hut her music is catchy .. The song it's "Fame" it talks about how she is addicted to fame and how people idolize celebrities ..a lyrics from the song goes "all we care about is runway models cadilacs and liquor bottles" that's what hollywods image basically is the super skinny latest scandels and pricy cars with the run in with rehab every now and then.. I would like to be famous but not for a scandel but for something good .. Like acting or something .. Idk just something that comes to mind when I imagine life that way :D

today started off slow .. I finally got the solution to sync my iPod which was obvious but I'm glad I thought of it eventually I watched my tv shows which take a majority of the day but I have to watch my self because if I do let myself get to caught up my day gets wasted because the shows run a good 12-4 yea.. Around 3 I started getting restless needing to do something but then i got a call from my sister who asked if I could tAke the kids (my niece and nephew) to sanger .. I Said ok and then got some new songs for my iPod while I waited for the kids to get here .. They got here around 5 and I was still trying to get everything synced back onto my iPod so we didn't leave until 5:30 i dropped them off at my aunts and headed back to Fresno .. I enjoy the drive because I am usually blasting the music and singing loudly but stopping when a car gets in viewing range so not to look crazy haha.. But I got home and wanted to take a walk since I was imobobile all day .. I had an idea to wher I was headed when I left after I was by a park close to my house I got a call from Moises we talked about some stuff and I just so happened to be 5 minutes from his house so he suggested I stop by so I did we talked and I scared his younger brother accidentaly because I was talking about the movie "paranormal activity" but he got over it when I handed over my iPod.. We talked more then I left because I still had to walk back.. I got home in good time and tuned into a show I like very much called "Chelsey lately" she is so funny .. But now I'm lying in bed practically dozing off .. I can't wait till next year ..

Eww

I haven't blogged in a while but nothing special hasn't happened besides Halloween haha that's why I just want this blog to be about my weekend

Friday wasn't to special I basically went to an interview I'm excited about but at the time was so nervous and practically prayed all day for my nerves to be calmed .. I got it over with and felt like it went good .. Later on that day I visited a friends church I took my friend zabdi and her brother because they would help me feel more comfortable it was pretty cool a change from the usual.. I actually had my room to myself when I got home becAuse my brother was in Selma on some band thing I actually had the best sleep ever it was great..

Saturday I stayed in bed until 10 and then started getting ready because it just so happened to be Halloween and I had agrees to attention my aunts annual party and of couse costume was nessasary.. I went as a vampire haha it was awesome .. I spent hours trying to put my fangs on since I ruined the adhesive they came with.. I settled with hot glue which molded to my tooth but didn't stick.. 6 o'clock came and I headed off to Sanger the party was good I helped by handing out candy at first ..the party died down around 3 and I was not happy about waking up early to drive back to Fresno for church but I did my best to fall asleep

Sunday I woke up and felt exaugsted but as soon as I heard starbucks I perked up and i headed to the coffee place with my cousins we got there and I was in my own little world enjoying my usual mocha frappacino we walked back and soon after me and my cousin pearl were driving back to Fresno to make it for break cause we missed Sunday school .. We got to church in good time I met up with Moises and we talked ..service was egh but it was over .. I also heard some rumors but they are so obviously made from people having nothing better to do and looking for anything to try and gossip about.. Out of nowhere I had this explosion of hyperness haha I would have said Burst but it was way more then that.. I was acting borderline immature but in the way where I don't say anything serous and just say randomness .. I got looks from alot of peolple it could have been my fangs or it could have been the fact that I was wearing gym shorts over my jeans.. I don't know haha but after talking to people everyone left and Moises invited me to his house to play rockband and we did and ended up watching paranormal activity ... To be honest my heart rate sped up on a few parts but mostly from the hype I heard .. I knew what was coming but didn't know when haha.. After the movie I said goodbye and headed home.. I streched out on my bed and watched tv until I got up to shower .. Now I am lying here awaiting sleep.. I hope I get through the night with no wake ups..