If you asked me to leap out of my boat on the crashing waves
And if you asked me to go preach to a lost world of Jesus save
I`ll go but I cannot go alone cause I know I`m nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong

Cause when I`m weak He makes me strong
When I`m blind He shines His light on me
Cause I`ll never get by livin on my own abilities - Casting Crowns

Do you ever wonder if people resent you because of your gifts? I ask because I used to be close to a certain person.. We had a falling out and all was forgiven or so I thought .. If a person acts as if your not present unless they ae forced to doesn't that exude a type of resentment or something.. I see this persons pretty often and it's the same I avoid him and he avoids me Its obvious this person has something against me but when I say that he resents my gifts it's because the light that draws people to me I know this person gets annoyed when I show up because I distract his people .. I don't want to say to much because I don't want drama.. It's just been on my mind and I find it ridiculous

Today I felt a strong sense of nervousness it was ridiculous ok so I woke up and realized it was Thursday and I wanted to atsunday Sunnyside highs Christian club I checked the time and I had 3 hours to get ready so I did then I started over thinking .. I started imagining scenarios like "what if they call to speak" or "what if the ask me to lead a study" I was nervous but I knew I would wan to talk about evangelism because I have been looking into this certain style called "way of the master" so I got prepared got my verses and soon it was time to go .. I started gettig stomach quivers as I headed out the door so I recited 2 Tim. An headed off I got there said another prayer(I was really nervous but didn't know why so I arrived and headed into the office I managed to ask the secretay for a visitors pass without shaking but as for signing in.. My hand was literally shaking!! I got a grip and headed to the out the office door as I looked around I felt a flash back .. Everything was the same the sea of students, where the groups sat I forgot to breathe until I was shocked back to reality by a group of guys staring.. I probably stood out .. I grabed my phone and texted zabdi because she was going to be my guide then I also isedto oppurtunity to text my old friend and tell her I was here I got her text back first she responds with "what where!!" so I told her and then I went looking for zabdi I seen her and jr so I waved and we met and then she said to follow her the route we took couldn't have been better because I heard "Anthony!!" and I turned to see my friend yarely whom I haven't seen in like 4 years.. Maybe 3 haha but I told zabdi I would be right there as I turned to go catch up k was greeted by one of those hugs where a girl throws her hands around your neck and hangs. I was tempted to spin like in the movies haha but I resisted and hugged back we caught up remeniced about old times and she laughed when she asked why I had a bible in my pocket I explained and we parted because I was already a little late for the club luckily I had Candis texts so I headed to where I thhought the class was .. Having attended sunnside 2 years I was familiar with the halls but I came to licked. Doors so I headed to another entrance it had to be God because I then ran into edwuardo a boy from church I was suprised to see him he was alone so I talked to him he asked if he could walk with me I hapilly agreed and we both headed to find the room .. We found it without any problems he was reluctant to go in but gave in with little struggle we got stares so we found our seats quickly I zoned in and knew what the teacher was talking about it was about Daniel and his friends shadrach meshach and abednego j was familiar with this story but I noticed the student teacher was nervous it was even more obvious when he started saying "thermos" instead of furnace I seen the youth from church there and laughed at myself because none of my Scenarios happened not even close ..i noticed Gilbert the youth minister was there.. With his son.. I was like wtheck.. Not because it was him but because he brought his son.. It was weird to me but after the meeting ended I greeted my people but got to caught up and didn't get to introduce myself to the club president.. There was some time left and my friend Jose asked if I wanted to meet his friend Brisa I Sadi of course because she is a friend of his who added me ad we have talked on occasio but never met so I took the oppurtunity we walked and talked but he couldn't find her ..lunch was over so I said bye to Jose and he hurried to his next class as I headed for the office I found the experiance great because I had no where near as much confidence walking in the halls of my old school as when I attended there .. I headed home and looked for something to eat for my lunch .. I settled for corn dogs I got caught up in a show and before I knew it my niece and nephew were here.. From there it was te same..Around 5 I was asked to go pick up a soda from the corner store for dinner I asked my niece if she wanted to come and she said yes so we left for 711 she was talking about boys from her school and how they annoy and bother her and her friends .. I snikered because of the obvious "boy teases girl he likes" so typical of elementary school we got to the store and got the soda a women that came out and was parked next to me kept staring I waited to see if she was going to back up but she didn't I looked and she was still staring probably thinking the same.. So I backed out first haha then I came to the curb and there was a car on the street in front so I could see the passenger and backseat people .. There was a lady in the front and a girl in the back.. The windows were down and they were both staring I laughed because my niece noticed as well it was uncomfortable but alas the light turned green ad they went .. A car let me cut in so I go onto the street and drove home ... I had dinner and helped with puttig in a roof of a shed my step dad put together .. I then had to babysit so I put on Hercules after tag I watchd monsters verses aliens . I was suprised to hear they mention Fresno in the movie haha the movie was actually pretty funny .. My sister came home so I took my nightly shower and now I'm lying in bed hoping I get a good night sleep With no wake ups which have been happening lately .. Night :D and if you are reading or have read any of these .. Your awesome and thanks haha :D