The motions

This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,
At least I'll be feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions"

that has to be one of my all time favorite songs... ok so i didnt blog yesterday because i was at my cousins and for some reason the internet went out.. but I actually feel glad I get to get to post again.. so yesterday was pretty lax.. I ordered some stuff for my ipod and am wating for those to come in the mail.. man I love ebay.. haha.. so I ended up going to my cousins house in sanger .. I always have fun there we ordered pizza and played games and talked .. my cousin is currently attending fresno state.. lucky him.. but 10 o'clock hit and I started to wonder how I was going to fall asleep.. so i watched tv till 12 and decided to just lie down and see what happened.. sleep came but only after I moved from the couch to the floor because the couch was making my neck hurt but i woke up like 4 times.. but eventually the morning came.. today was stressful.. I came home to take a shower and wait for my niece and nephew to get home and was going to head back to sanger. but things didnt go that way.. I am still currently waiting to go back but I hit another neutral state.. but I will be heading out in a few.. well I feel good that I vented.. im starting to like blogging. although I keep thinking what my close friends would say if they read it.. I know I got embarrassed because I knew a friend wanted to read my blog .. but shes cool and gave me encouragement on my blog .. so thanks.. you I think you know who you are.. lol!!