Bring the Rain

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain
Bring the rain -Mercy Me

Ok so i havent wrote in a while mainly because I was either lying in bed about to fall asleep and the last thing i think is how I didnt blog.. my other excuse is that nothing interesting enough happened.. but these past few days has been like an earthquake ok so Wednesday was pretty much the same oh day.. I got ready watched my niece and nephew and then before I knew it,.. it was time for church.. at first I was really into the lesson but then I was hit by a sudden wave of tiredness.. I was able to listen but didnt participate much.. after that I came home I noticed a show I wanted to watch was on so I starting watching and I have to say "Glee" is an awesome show.. but during my brother kept entering the room and leaving with the door open..so i got up to close it.. it happened 4 more times so I finally locked the door.. Glee was 5 minutes from ending when the knocking began.. I pretended not to hear and before I knew it my mom was knocking.. I was about to get up when I heard the sound of keys .. I got mad because I knew it was my step-dad trying to find the key to our room.. he was successful.. but he didnt stop he threatened to take off the door if i ever locked it again.. he was ranting about something but I was so angry I couldnt hear and my heart was beating so hard I could feel my shirt moving.. we ended up getting into an argument on how I was supposed to be setting an example for my brother.. I shot back on how he shouldnt speak because he doenst set an example .. but it went back and forth until the "My house My rules" card was played..(this was all built up anger and malice.. stuff like this doesnt come out of nowhere)... but after sitting on my bed fighting back anger tears I got up and left..I started driving unknown was my destination but I had to remind myself to keep the speed limit.. I ended up a few miles from sanger before I realized....my cousin lives in sanger but I told myself I didnt want to to go someones house so I turned around and headed back into fresno.. I kept driving until I was downtown.. I was in the worst place.. it was where the homeless live.. not the safest place.. but I didnt care.. I stopped in a semi well lit area and let it out to God.. asking why.. why is it so hard to get along.. why do I care so much that he doesnt speak to me or acknowledge my presence .. and every sunday its the same thing.. "smile for a couple hours" and then come home and roam around like a troll (literally and it doesn't help that he has a limp) but yea there I was in the middle of nowhere .. with an old factory to my right and to my left across the street was a gate and on the other side was made up tents everywhere at first I didnt see anyone then I began to see people walking around.. cars were passing.. I seen at least 5 prostitutes and 2 diesal trucks stopped but I dont believe they picked up any I prayed to be safe and safe I was .. only 2 people passed my car but they didnt stop.. by this time it was 11:40 and I was edgy.. I planned to sleep in the car but that was a risk in itself.. I had my mirrors set up so I could see behind me and to the sides.. I then seen 2 pairs of headlights .. as they approach one lights up .. its a cop.. I thought 2 cops were going to pull up behind me but he pulled over some other car.. I sighed relief and thought.. "I will leave when he is gone"... and that I did.. I finally headed home as I walked in the door I noticed my mom was still up.. she would be up worrying I headed to bed and she came into "talk" I wasnt up to it but something she said irked me where my heart began to race again.. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time because that statement was so ludicrous to me... she finally got the hint and left... It wasnt long before I drifted off and was startled by my phones vibration I didnt want to wake up..it was thursday... but I then remembered I had an appointment with the apple store my ipod recently had its right touch side go out.. so I wasnt aware of apples procedure.. I went in and before I knew it I had a new Ipod.. they replaced it.. yay.. thank God.... the rest of the day consisted of me trying not to scratch the back of my Ipod .. my last one wasnt as lucky.. night came and went and it now im at today(Friday) .. this day was average.. you could cut the tension with a knife.. but today consisted of me reading this book.. I might write about it but not now.. this one got kinda long.... :D